Charity Lunch

Saturday, 1 October 2011

. . .eating...

eating good food. . .

One of Papa's lecture to me when the kids were growing up was about eating good food and drinking lots of plain water. Papa reads newspapers. . .when I was young, I remember having newspapers to read everyday. Papa will read the paper from front to the back, withour leaving any column behind. . .I think. . for he spends a long time to read them. As a result he knows lots of things and shares with me. Papa said kids need good food, kids are also like a tree, it will grow big and healthy when you water them, put fertilizer to them. So, in order for my children to grow healthy I need to feed them well. I know and thanks to Papa who constantly share infos with me. I did follow his suggestions, my kids were well fed when they were in my custody. . .I will definitely feed them with good nutritious food when they are back with me. . .InsyaAllah.

I am still watching my diet as always. I eat good and nutritious food which I cook when I have the time. Good food is the key to good health. healthy body and healthy mind.

When Khairina and Farhana were abducted from us, I couldn't eat for several weeks. The first week was terrible, I can't eat. . .I was crying and feeling very weak. I just couldn't get myself to eat. I was hungry but I can't eat. My Sayang Riza was no better . . . we shared our food. . .eating was then just to keep us alive and gave us energy to pray. We were too devastated by the abduction, they were taken away from us. We were in such a terrible state . . . we need to gain back our strength in life and continue for we have so many other things that we need to do as long as we live in this world. From the day the children were taken away. . .we recite Yaasin daily. . .My Sayang Riza never missed. . .we are still reciting . . .every single day until the children return to us. We will not stop. InsyaAllah...

Spiritually. . .we are getting stronger and stronger day by day but physically we were still weak. . .we were not eating well. By November 2010, I was already back to work and we were squarting in Kajang at Paman Komari's house, abah's cousin. We ate out and occasionally eat with paman. We just eat to survive. Then we returned to Batu Gajah for weekend and the school holidays.

Alhamdulillah, we are eating better now. I can cook my own food. Choose my own vegetable and cook them. Life is wonderful. Meals are very simple nowadays, Basmathi rice, one meat dish, one vegetable or salad and My Sayang Riza's favourite Sambal Belacan. For fruits, i go for fruit juice as they are easier to keep, fruit gets 'kecut' and it got rotten.

I have some time to do what I like best, that is to cook for people to it. Thank you for this opportunity again.,

Butter Cakes

Butter Cakes. . .

When mummy came to BG that day, I bake butter cakes to send to Mak's house for Mak and Abah were having open house. Mummy joined me in my little kitchen. We sat in the kitchen and she watched me mixing the butter cake. I said to her, mummy. . . do you remember the first time we make cakes together. . .mummy said ada ke? Bila.
. . .Don't you remember then, when we were still in Peringat, I was 11 at that time. We baked butter cakes, it was a marble butter cake, we mix green and red to it. It turned out to be a nice cake and we brought it to Tok Wan's house in Wakaf Mek Zainab. . .

I always remember the fond memories of me and my mummy as well as other loves of my life. . .my children, my siblings, my grandparents and my friends. Those memories stay with me in the time of trouble and difficulties. It was pretty difficult and painful when you lost those love ones in your life. . . You may not understand now. . .but later you may. . .if you are lucky enough to continue reading and I am lucky enough to continue writing.

I baked beautiful butter cakes, thanks to Rohayu Win for sharing the wonderful recipe with me. I just do manually. . .not in need of electric mixer.

Later the day, mummy told me that she remembered the baking cake session I mentioned to her. How do i forget if I am the only 11 year old who bake cake with her mummy. Mummy has this round oven. . .our life was different from those ordinaries in Peringat then. . . For Hari Raya, our clothes were different from the rest because mummy will order the better and more expensive ready made clothes from the 'makcik jual kain',she will only buy for the three of us. . .same design but different colour. She won't buy the same and sell it to the villagers. I remember having a beautiful princess like gown for Hari Raya that year. Mine was purple. Zila's was red and Ziha's was pink. The gown was so pretty and I always feel very pretty wearing it. . .like a princess.

We were lucky because mummy has a grocery shop at that time. She is earning her own income. Her shop was one of the most frequented shops in Kedai Peringat because she is very pretty. . .she is still pretty now. . . She is prettier than me, she has sharp nose. . .I have a part of my papa's nose and part of mummy's nose. . . My Sayang Riza's nose is the sharpest and the most beautiful nose. . .I envy him.

Ladies of 25 to 45 of age like to come to our shop, especially when they need to buy gifts for weddings, mummy knows how to wrap the gifts nicely and later I learned to wrap gifts. Mummy would let me wrap the gifts and I helped her occasionally in the shop. Next to mummy's shop is Ayoh's and Mok's shop. Ayoh had a small coffee shop, later turned grocery shop when we moved to Tampin. I liked to help Ayoh at his coffee shop as well.

At mummy's grocery shops, there were many things, biscuits, sweets, junk food. . .we don't need to buy from other shops. . .but I visited other shops and bought what was not available from our shop. Hehehehe. I was born in Kedai Peringat, went to kindergarden and my primary school was SKPeringat.

Coming back to the butter cake story. . .i don't actually eat much of it. I bake to feed people. . . Zol said he likes butter cakes, only butter cakes. I have been baking all my life. . .I bake for my children. . .one of this days, I will be baking Iskandar's favourite kiwi muffins. . .InsyaAllah.

Friday, 30 September 2011

Di Syawal yang Indah itu. . .

Di Syawal yang indah itu. . .
Time flies. . .
Everybody says that. When it is gone. . .it will never return. Alhamdulillah by the 29th Syawal, my hubby and I managed to finish our 6-day-fast. History repeats itself for we were repeating what had happened to last year’s 6-day-fast. Put what had happened behind and pray for the next Syawal so that we can do the 6-day-fast again. . . 
This Syawal is the eid celebration without the children. Last year, Kakak and Adik were still with us and I met Iman, Anis, Iskandar, Irah and Ica at Mummy’s house. This year just the two of us. InsyaAllah, I pray for another Ramadhan and another Syawal to celebrate with the children. . . All the ten of them. . .hmmm or 11….hehehe
1. Muhammad Riza Fitri
2. Mohd Ariff Sulaiman
3. Nur Qistina
4. Nur Anis Syakila
5. Nur Sabrina
6. Muhammad Ariff Iskandar
7. Nur Anis Zafirah
8. Nur Anis Anissa
9. Nur Khairina
10. Nur Farhana
11.

Alhamdulillah. . .Syawal is indeed the month of winnings.
We celebrated Hari Raya Aidilfitri in Batu Gajah. Did the Aidil Fitri prayers in Batu Gajah. Visited relatives in Teluk Intan and Parit.
Papa, Mummy and Mok came over to visit me and Riza in Batu Gajah. The trip was well-worth as we managed to enjoy each other’s company. We went to Lumut, Pasar Minggu Batu Gajah where Papa, Mummy and Mok did some shopping.
Managed to get Papa, Mummy and Mok stayed for two nights and they left for Seremban on Monday morning. … we met again on the weekend when I accompanied Riza to the Annual Meeting of PERKIM in Seremban on the 24th of September. Alhamdulillah. . . it’s the month of winnings….. I love you all Tn Hj Wan Ismail bin Wan Ab Rahman, Pn. Hjh Zuriah bte Hussein and Che Yah bte Salleh.

To Pn Hjh Siti Ramlah binti Ariffin dan Tn Hj Ahmad Hambadley bin Razak, thank you very much for being a wonderful mother and father-in-law to me. Those people just don't know what they have missed in their life. Thank you Mak for being there for me, I thank Allah for giving me you. I love you...


To My Sayang Riza. . .I couldn't get enough thank you to give to you... I love you very much

Should have posted this long ago. . .

Andai Ini Ramadhan yang Terakhir…..
I have seen people trying to be sentimental over the above statement…. To me, there is not so much to be sentimental about….
Living life to the fullest ( I am hanging to this all my life ) and living the day by day ( Riza Ahmad’s teaching) have given me the strength to continue life without worries. There were worries then but after one year with Riza Ahmad I have learned to be Redha and living day by day by doing the best you can… as for example in a life of a muslim, one has to fulfill his responsibility to his Creator that is to pray 5 times. Doing it diligently, one shouldn’t be worried anymore…you have performed your duties why worry of the Pahala or whether you are doing it enough…Pahala is from Allah, we shouldn’t be questioning. Kalau ada, dapatlah…kalau Allah tak mahu bagi nasiblah…apa pun sembahyanglah tanpa ada syarat. Kita solat kerana kita difardhukan untuk solat sebagai pernyataan kepatuhan kita kepada pencipta kita Allah Subhanawataa’la.
When we keep track of our solat, solat sebagaimana yg disyariatkan maka tiada perlu berasa bimbang ttg hal solat itu lagi. InsyaAllah solat kita diterima.
Then, we continue our day at work or at studies. At work as a teacher or a lecturer or a student or anything. We should know why we work everyday, is it to get the salary every end of the month or sometimes bonus??? Or allowances for students. If your reason would be purely for money and money shall you get. One should work or study because we have to do good to this earth and Allah will Redha with you. InsyaAllah, Allah’s Blessings( Redha) is there when you fulfill all you responsibility for the day, say you have 4 hours of class so you prepare materials for it, go to class and teach and then clock out. Having to do that you are fulfilling the responsibility towards yr profession which can be made rich by putting in good values such as come to work on time, reach to class on time and finish the class at the expected time. There are of course some give and take in the matter of time but make sure we follow the schedule. The practice is there in our daily solat, we can perform Zohor when it reaches midday, no less, but we are given a duration of time convenient to us to perform it. Yes, we are strongly suggested to perform the solat promptly after the azan, but if you are working at that time and leaving your work may harm or do some kind of damage or loss, one can pray any time in the period given. Starting class punctually is a good habit and a good habit will be carried far, our students will follow the value of being punctual, then that becomes “ilmu yang dimanafaatkan” …rewards for it will never stop. This is one of the example…many more can be done.
Is that all? Doing the best for yourself, doing the best for your job…and your day will be complete? This life is not only for ourselves or our family…there are also other people…life is not going to be complete until you show your care and help others around you.
I am going to stop at this point.
Andai ini ramadhan yang terakhir, maka aku redha akan ketentuanMu Y Allah. Aku telah berusaha untuk menjadi seorang muslim sejajar dengan apa yang disyariatkan. Therefore, if this is going to be the last ramadhan , let it be for I have done the best I can.

This was written some time ago....

Doing life the second time…
I don’t know about others, but I consider myself as being given another chance to do life the second time. My marriage to Mohammad Riza bin Ahmad Hambadley is the chance of doing life the second time.
In life, as Muslim’s, we have the Quran and As-Sunnah as guidelines. In a marriage, the husband will lead the wife to the path of Allah. In doing so, the husband has to have a good knowledge of Islam so that he can guide his wife and later his children. A Muslim must abide by the 5 pillars of being a Muslim. He has to recite the Syahadah, pray 5 times a day, fasting in the month of Ramadhan, pay Zakat and go to Hajj.
Alhamdulillah, in this second chance, I am able to pray five times a day lead by my husband. He will always invite me to perform prayers with him. In the life before, this has not happened. It is a very rare occasion that I completed the 5 times a day prayers. In this second chance of life I have stopped by at more mosques than I did in my 15 years of previous marriage. I have gone to all the prayers places available at the shopping complexes that I gone to, previously, I have never been there as I have never performed prayers when I am out shopping. Thank You Allah.
Since 15th of October 2010, my husband recites “Yassin” everyday without fail. I have breaks of course when I have to take the monthly off duties… I can recite Yassin very well now, previously, I will read when I have time…alone…
Last Ramadhan, I was able to do the 6 days of fasting in Syawal, both of us did. For the first time in my life, I completed the 6-day-fast in Syawal. I am not embarrassed to let people know this as I believe there would be others who were also like me or still like me then. I mean, the basics of being a Muslim are not being practiced well. My students in IPG KPI would not be in the group of people I referred to as almost all of them went to School for the Muslims and they are all well versed in the matter of Islam.
My parents taught me well. They taught me how to pray, sent me to learn to recite the Quran. Papa always called me and my siblings to pray together with him. My father is a good leader. My mummy is a good wife and a good mum.
The leader of my previous marriage failed to guide me to the right path.
I am going to take this second chance to the fullest.
Jazz, a friend of mine put this on her status on Friday…
• "Dan antara tanda-tanda yang membuktikan kekuasaan-Nya dan rahmat-Nya bahawa Dia menciptakan untuk kamu (wahai kaum lelaki) isteri-isteri daripada jenis kamu sendiri, supaya kamu BERSENANG HATI dan hidup MESRA dengannya, dan dijadikan di antara kamu (suami isteri) perasaan KASIH SAYANG dan BELAS KASIHAN." ([B]Surah Ar-Rum, 21[/B])

This was my comment:
Guidelines are given to us in all aspects of life. One can always stop being bad and be good for each other, it’s a choice. If it didn’t work that way, one can start all over again... :)

Thursday, 14 July 2011

. . .charity lunch. . .

Today is the fifth day of charity lunch. Mak and My Sayang Riza have been cooking and distributing the charity lunch at the Muhibbudin Mosque in Ipoh. My task daily is to wash the pots and prepare the ingredients to be cooked for the next day. After work or after Maghrib prayers and daily Yasin recitation we will go to Mak's house to do the work.And today I am the distribution place, its going to rain and the men are performing the Friday prayers.

Monday, 11 July 2011

...doing fine...

Alhamdulillah...

I finally transfered to IPG Kampus Ipoh. It has been more than a year struggle before I can call it a day. The life in Bandar Baru Bangi had been difficult when we had to travel back to Batu Gajah every weekend. It was the torturous travel every sunday night or as early as 4.00 am on monday morning. Nobody knows how it felt unless he or she had gone through it themselves.
Alhamdulillah, with a little more patience we managed to stay sober and to keep our sanity in the process of getting the transfer.

Only last weekend, I managed to start cleaning the weekend house which was left unattended for more than a year. I only had the time and energy to do 50% of the needed cleaning up. With the load of work and preparation for my BI3311D class and daily routines, that is an achievement though.

Some might not know about my transfer yet, my absense may not be missed after all :) life has to go on... :D

I am now teaching only BI3311D, responsible for 6 classes and 2 TESL practicum students. I am going to go for the social visit to SK Tronoh this friday.

Monday, 18 April 2011

...i am new at this...

this is my second post... i wonder why my first post is not visible to the eyes...nevermind...there is always room for improvement...

To begin with ...

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the worlds;
Most Gracious, Most Merciful;
Master of the Day of Judgment.
Thee do we worship, and Thine aid we seek.
Show us the right way;
The way of those on whom Thou hast bestowed Thy Grace, those whose (portion) is not wrath, and who go not astray.